Tears of Sadness

Today, April 10, 2014My cat was given to me August 27, 2013. It's been 8 months back then.
I was so happy when I see her, I give her name "Hana".
She was so sweet, always sleeping in my bed with me, we even shared the same pillow.
I always kiss her when she's asleep.
Then yesterday, I woke up she was gone.
I'm used to it, I thought she just went on our ceiling to play with rats.
But she has not come back yet until today.
I cried last night, and I'm crying until now.
I want her back, God knows I love her so much.
I love her more than myself.
I fight for her, because back then my mom didn't want to keep her.
Please help me God.
Help me to find her ...

I'll do anything just bring her back ;(

Back to the place where we first met

It’s been 5 years since the last day that I saw you. It’s kinda weird but I feel like that I miss you but this feeling are not supposed to happened.

Let’s start at that day when we first met. I was a transferred student when I entered the school in my 2^nd year high school, so I only know the persons belonging in the same class with me. And when I became 3^rd year high school, I was shift into another class and then I became in the same class with you. At first, I really don’t like you because you’re arrogant. You’re always teasing me and it really makes me mad. You’re always saying that you had a crush on me but I feel that you’re just teasing me because you have a girl friend that time. One day, I put a lot of picture of me on my wallet, because to be honest I really love myself even though I’m not that pretty. Then, I left my wallet on the classroom and then when I came back I check on it if my money is missing. Thank God my money is still there. But when I counted the pictures that I put on it, I realize one is missing. Then you show me your wallet and I saw my picture on it! I asked you to return my picture but you didn’t do it.

Then one night, I dreamt of you, it was an accident! Or should I say it is just unexpected. I dreamt that you was holding my hand. When I wake up, I said to myself that it was not just an ordinary dream, it’s a nightmare! Then of course I told that dream to my best friend not knowing that your best friend was listening, I just noticed that he was listening when I finished telling my friend about it. Then I beg his best friend not to tell to you, and he promised not to tell you. And then, another day has passed I just noticed that you are acting strange. You’re always saying to me that you will demonstrate something… and then you keep waving your hands. I realized that your best friend told you about my dream! I was really an idiot when I think that he will not tell you that, in the first place you’re best friends that’s why he told you about that. And then you started teasing me again. You even say ‘I love you’ when we’re in the gym but I don’t believe that because you have a girl friend.

And then, when we became 4^th year high school or should I say seniors, you transfer into a school that’s really far from my school, actually I don’t really care about it. But even though you’re far from me, we still have contacts to each other. My friends are teasing me because in our classroom I am the only one that has contact on you. And I say that’s impossible! But they say that it was true.

Then when we became 1^st year college, I heard that you came back in our village. Then I sent a message on you to confirm it and it was true. We started sending texts to each other again. But I never saw you when you came back. Only text message are our only connection to each other. And then one day, you said that you will going back to that far place again, I just said “Ok Happy Journey” and then you really go back there. But now, I don’t know if I don’t care anymore. It feels like I became sad when you said that. I never saw you when you came back here in our village and I never saw you when you’re about to leave.

Then after months I guess, I changed my number and then we lost contacts to each other. My feelings are not confused anymore.

One day, me and my friends decided to have a reunion party.

When me and of my friends are there, we keep on talking and telling stories about our life. Then one of my friends, let’s name her Ayumi (Not the real name), asks…

Ayumi: Hey, how are you and him? (She was talking about you)

Me: There’s no us.

Ayumi: But you still have contacts to him.

Me: No, I already changed my number.

Ayumi: Too bad, when we’re in highschool I remember when he said “Look at her Ayumi, She’s really beautiful” then I look at where is looking at, and then he was staring at you!

That time my feelings for you became stronger. I have suitors now but I always think of you.

Did you know that my guy best friend in college is courting me? But I hurt his feelings because of you.

Will you came back here? Came back where we first met?

Have your feelings for me changed?

Please come back, and let’s start over again.

And I’m hoping that picture of me in you will be the reason for you to came back here.

Tears of Joy

November 17, 2013

Me and my brother used to fight a lot.

We're not getting along that well.

I'm a girl, and he's a guy and I think that's the reason we're fighting always.

We have a lot of differences

He has a lot of girl friends, not the particular girlfriends, but friends that are girls.

And I have a lot of male friends, but I'm not a lesbian or something.

Some incident happen earlier.

It's 1:30 in the morning I guess.

I was searching for my cat, Hana, because I can't sleep without Hana.

I searched for her in the kitchen, bathroom, cabinet and outside the house, but still I cannot find her.

Then I sleep.

When I wake up, it's 7:30 in the morning. I saw my cat walking around inside our house.

I was very happy.

Then when I carry my cat, my father saw it and then he said "When did that cat get here?"

What does he mean by that words? Is that mean that my father mislead my cat somewhere and abandoned her?

When I heard those words, I go to the kitchen and cried.

I didn't know that my father would do that.

He knew that I love Hana very much, but still he abandoned my cat somewhere.

Then, I asked my brother, if my father really abandoned my cat.

My brother said yes.

My brother followed my father last night and he saw my father that he abandoned my cat under the Acacia street near the highway.

When I heard that, I cried again.

Then I asked my brother how did Hana, get home. How did she know the way home?

My brother replied.

"I go to the Acacia tree earlier while father was asleep, I saw Hana was sitting under the tree, I took her and bring her back home"

When I heard those words, It make me cry again.

My father asked my brother If he bring back the cat home again.

My brother replied "No, I did not do that"

He lied into my father. But I'm happy, my brother bring back Hana into me.

We have a lot of differences, but He understand my feeling.

I am still crying while I was writing on this blog.

But it is not a tears of pain.

It is a tears of joy.

I'm thankful that my brother really loves me.

I hope that my father will not abandon my cat anymore.

The True Me

Hi, I'm Amor Pascual.
18 years old girl and taking up Architecture course.
I'm the type of girl who likes to write story about other people but not of myself.
But some incident happen.
And staring a that day, it make me realize that I want to express my feeling in a blog.
So, I make an account here.
Join me in my journey as I travel in a world that's full of truth.